Before I rolled out of bed this morning I started at my wall for a few minutes and just felt so overwhelmed with peace and joy….
Maybe I should explain. Recently my family helped me redecorate my room. It had been the same for like seven years? I remember how much fun I had redoing it the first time and how much I absolutely loved that blue accent wall! I loved the thrift store bed that we found and painted and I remember exactly where I found the perfect comforter. I felt so inspired when I used that comforter to choose the pain for the accent wall! It was an adventure that brought me so much joy!
Fast forward to recently. My bed had been starting to fall apart, I turned my room into my home office and the blue was making my room feel small and cluttered. I’m not sure how long I felt that way before I started to notice how I was feeling. The feeling of unhappiness must have been present for quite a long time (at least a year) before I even noticed it. In fact, it wasn’t until my bed broke and required me to buy a new one that I even considered redecorating. New bed, new accent wall, new comforter and pillows. I love my room again! Now I keep my bed made and it brings me joy while I work.
“Making time to experience joy is the single most important thing you can do to heal your heart.”
Amy Leigh Mercree
So back to this morning. I was lying in my bed and thinking of how much joy this new wall is bringing me and I started to wonder when I stopped feeling joy in my room. It got me thinking about other areas in my life where I’m no longer feeling as much joy as I used to. This is a silly example, but when someone asks me what my favorite ice cream is I give the same answer I’ve always given: peanut butter and chocolate from Baskin Robbins. But is it really my favorite? In all honesty I don’t think I like ice cream all that much anymore. I seem to have this idea in my head that if something used to bring me joy then it always will. When I stop and think about it that doesn’t really make much sense. I change and grow and evolve so why shouldn’t what brings me joy change and grow and evolve with me?
I am wholeheartedly committed to growth and change. So now I’m making a new commitment to being present and truly noticing what I’m experiencing. I am commiting to notice when things stop inspiring me and giving myself permission to move on to new experiences. I am reaffirming my commitment to recognizing, creating and embracing…
