46!
What a year! It feels like my last birthday was a century ago & like it was just a few weeks ago & time is flying by. Last year at this time I was getting ready for taking my LCSW test. I was battling to feel like I was good enough and wondering what the next steps might look like. Honestly it’s kind of hard to remember my mindset from last year (good thing I journaled about it and I can look back on it if I need to).
I remember being in a not-good-enough, anxiety-based, somewhat fear-driven mindset. Often I found myself feeling like I was falling apart & I was terrified of the unknown. I really was lacking in confidence, if never in vision. I’ve always known I wanted to move ahead, do bigger things, take a risk and step up to the next challenge.
I’ve come a long way in a year. I still deal with self doubt but I don’t pay much attention to it anymore. I’m like, yeah, that’s there but whatever. I’m doing this thing anyway. All of my life I’ve been striving to find the right answer, the instruction manual that has the step by step process that leads to success. I love checklists and rules and steps. This year I’ve finally started to learn that step by step manual is not really a thing. I mean there are answers but they are to be found on the inside, not in rules or in the expectations of others. I get to (and need to) define them for myself. What a shift this has been! From always looking outside of myself for guidance & answers to looking within.
The journey to understanding begins with a leap of faith.
Dannika Dark
I’m moving from a fear and anxiety based scarcity mindset to one of abundance, creativity and endless possibility. From working for someone else to working for myself. I’ve taken some leaps of faith in my time but none quite like this one, this new way of thinking & this new business & this new me. So here’s to 46 and new horizons, abundance, intentions, love, learning & a brand new…
