I kind of hope there’s something wrong with me…I kind of hope this isn’t how it’s supposed to be…I pray to God it’s not normal, crying on the floor I don’t want to do this anymore…
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Have you ever felt like that?
I know I have. Sometimes it’s comforting to think that we’re normal and just like everyone else. And sometimes that’s downright terrifying. If the place you’re in is dark or scary then I think it makes total sense to hope that it won’t always be this way. I remember being told they thought my son had autism. When I broke down crying they comforted me saying he would be okay. When I finally calmed down enough to explain I told them I was so GLAD! This means that he’s a kid with challenges and I’m doing a good job with a really hard situation. It was such a huge comfort to think there was a reason for the challenges.
For me it’s a message of hope…to think that when we’re lost in depression, anxiety, or trauma that it’s not normal. It doesn’t have to be this way and it won’t always be this way if we put in the work to heal. Rarely can that work be done alone, and it’s not an easy journey but it is completely possible and achievable.
Another lyric from this song is “and if everybody’s crazy then who’s supposed to fix it?” My answer to that is those of us who are further along in the healing process can turn around and help the ones who are still stuck in the darkness. After all, who better to help someone find their way out than someone who’s already done it right?
I hope you know it is NOT “normal, crying on the floor.” It’s okay, it happens and it is real and valid but it’s not forever. Love, light, and healing are there if you can muster the courage to seek for it. It won’t always be this way, there does come a time when it doesn’t hurt…
